September 2011
1 post
Embracing Fear and Kicking Ass - via Location...
I’ve been a fan of Sean Ogle and Location Rebel since I was first introduced to him a few months ago. I highly recommend you check out his site - this is my first article, and marks the official launch of my new site, FearLess Jenn!
Have a great weekend everyone!
August 2011
5 posts
Answering the call
So excited! My 100 words were featured on Max Hardy’s awesome site, 1000 Lives in 100 Words today!
This is such a cool project - I think you should submit your “100 words” too! You can find out how to do that here!
Learning curve
As many of you know, for me the past month has been an emotional thunderstorm. All the frustrations, fears and hidden ambitions ebb and flow within me, seemingly without control. One day, I feel inspired and overwhelmed with hope and ideas. The next, I am nearly crushed by fear and uncertainty.
Making the decision to quit my job, abandon the comfort of a career structure that, while I was...
Me and the Mary Janes
This was my very first submission to a professional literary publication, Longshot Magazine. It didn’t make it, but rather than let my first rejection get me down, I thought I’d share it with you. You can read more about Longshot and the theme of their newest edition here: http://longshotmag.com/post/8224135338/and-the-issue-two-theme-is
The magazine is a really cool concept and...
July 2011
10 posts
Take that you miserable cube!
It’s official. In about five weeks, I get to give my dark, ugly, desperation-laced fake wood cube the finger.
Probably both fingers.
I actually quit last week, however, I don’t think my boss really believed me. He asked me to keep it quiet and we would “revisit the situation” next week. Fine, I’m leaving no matter what he says, so the technicality of him...
Passion pledge
On this Sunday, July 24, 2011, I, Satia LauRae do hereby pledge my allegiance to my Passions.
From this day forth, I commit to honoring this unique and beautiful life I have been given.
I will do this by listening to my heart, following my gut, trusting others and talking risks.
I pledge not to give in to fear, when it tempts me off the ledges of uncertainty and doubt, with the promise of...
Death by a thousand paper cuts
It was 6:00 am, and once again I found myself seated in my corner, boss at my back and colleague an arms-length to my right (or left depending on which way I swung my chair).
I stared down at the well worn keys on my keyboard and felt a tinge of sickness as I envisioned spending yet another day trapped beneath the palpable oppression of discontent and florescent lights. Having a steady income...
58 minutes
In about an hour, my life may be changing. In less than 58 minutes, I may begin writing my resignation letter, putting my house up for sale, getting rid of all my shit and packing a bag. Soon, the things I have come to “know” about myself might suddenly be history. In the time it takes me to get ready in the morning, do laundry or drive to work, I could be starting a new life. Although ...
Coffee, wine and the lion's pride
As I walked into The Coffee Bar, I immediately felt like an intruder. Eyes were on me, I could feel it. Were they glaring? Baring their teeth and saving the seats next to them, whispering urgently “interloper!” to their brethren seated nearby. I was early for a meeting, as usual, so I ordered a drink. Thank god this place was actually a bar of sorts, and didn’t just serve coffee. That...
Paycheck with a purpose
Up until this point, this blog has been somewhat of an experiment for me. I had convinced myself that no one would actually read it, yet I still allowed myself to fantasize it would become wildly popular, and suddenly, I would have a whole community of supporters and inspiring individuals to help guide me through this. What is “this” you ask? To be perfectly honest, I’m not...
Left turn then a flat tire
Remember that time someone slashed my tires and keyed my car? No? I guess that’s because it hasn’t happened yet, but let me tell you why I know it will. So it’s been a long, awful day at work (e.g. typical weekday). I’m in the final moments of my commute, steeling myself in preparation for the necessary trek through my shitty neighborhood grocery store because I...
Travel journals - Roatan, Honduras
I have been torturing myself lately by re-reading old travel journals. I came across this entry and had to hide my credit cards for fear of booking a one-way ticket. Would that have been so bad, really?
June 15, 2008 Roatan, Honduras 6:30 am
It’s another beautiful morning. The water is lightly lapping up on the rocky shore, the sea calm and smooth. The sky is filled with puffs of...
June 2011
7 posts
Cold beer and a fat lip
Over the weekend I met up for drinks with a friend, who felt it her duty to provide me with unsolicited criticism (or “feedback” as she put it) on my newborn blog.
I gnashed my teeth, bit my lip and inhaled two beers before I insisted she stop. Surprised, she inquired, “oh, did you want to get your notebook so you can write all this down? I’ll bet you are just...
Naked
One evening about three years ago, I arrived home after my standard 1 1/2 hour commute from the job I hate. I walked through my front door, took off all my clothes, poured myself a glass of wine and collapsed on the kitchen floor. I was broken.
I don’t know how long I was there, but I eventually cried myself to sleep. I awoke with an empty wine glass and a puddle of sickly...
Do you play video games? Focus Group $75 (Midtown)
As I was perusing the exciting world of craigslist job posts, I ran across this one and couldn’t resist. Anyone who has dated/known a gamer, you know how right I am.
Dear focus group organizer,
Thank you for your most recent post requesting males between the ages of 16-18 for your focus group on the exciting world of MMO gaming. While I technically do not fit your general criteria...
Introduction to acting
It was my junior year in college.
I was not happy in my relationship (a guy I had been with since high school) and I was extremely overweight. I needed credits in the arts area, and my boyfriend, who had recently found his passion in journalism (radio/tv production) mentioned there was an acting teacher who was really cool, and maybe I should take his introduction to acting class. I...
The Markets
I remember the day I was offered the job at a huge global bank, working as a new account specialist. I was so fucking excited to push papers rather than having to pretend I gave a shit about The Markets.
People in the office would strut around, noting so and so got hammered today, or the Dow is doing this, or the Fed is raising rates. I consider myself a fairly intelligent and adaptive...
November 2010
1 post
Different
Today was different from other days. Today, the ugly, heavy cloud that forces me down, squeezes life and hope out of me, was gone. Just gone. I didn’t yawn once today. I abandoned the couch and basked in the afternoon sunlight, reading and appreciating the unconditional love of my cat. All day I wait. Wondering when that cloud will roll back in and remind me even a single day of...
August 2010
1 post
The magic ingredient
Technically, I suppose it was a blind date. We had only spoken on the phone, but I could tell from his voice I was going to like this one. This one might have some potential.
“Dinner? At your place? Tomorrow night?” I could feel my brain struggling with my lips and tongue as my mouth said “yes” but my logical, safe dating rule-abiding brain said “no, no, no, no!!”
I arrived just after 7:30,...
